How is this ok to wake up to today????? Especially at f*ing 4:45 am--AGAIN!

Hi xxxxx,

I truly am sorry for having hurt you - please forgive me for the wrongs I have done! I value you and your friendship too much to just let go - can we start over?

Joel


**not only this, but an email...that basically said the same exact fu@king thing. UNF*CKINGBELIEVABLE!
EMAIL:
Hi xxxxx,

I know you probably hate me, but I've been thinking about you a lot lately and wanted to see how you have been. I'm so sorry for being such a fricking head case and having hurt you - I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! I hope someday to mend our relationship as I truly want you as a part of my life. I lived for so many years without your friendship, and now, to have lost that makes me feel foolish and empty inside. Could we maybe start over from day 1? Hi, my name is Joel. I've seen you around. Do you want to be friends?

Love,

Joel


What is it about me that this keeps happening????????

I am going to the gym. WTF? It is 5:46am! I HATE THE MORNING TIME.