I appreciate the sentiment, truly. Like I have said to many I associate with, you are one of the kindest humans I have ever encountered. That doesn't eradicate the fact that I have been hurt voraciously by your son, and because of the fact I was never given any opportunity (like the majority of adult relationships are given) for closure, your email only dredged up more of my pain. Not only that, but your seeming acceptance of the disgusting way I was treated also hurts more than anyone could know. I'm sure this won't make sense, I have had a stress migraine all week, and things have not been easy, so I apologize. I'm not one who can just "get over" the fact that I ignored my gut instinct for faith in someone, only to be tossed aside and treated like a piece of garbage. I'm not at that place yet that "all I want is the best" because it is too fresh, and the disrespect that was exhibited is too real. I am not sure, because of the cowardly way he decided to deal with things, that I will ever want what is best for him. After the belittling and degrading way I was treated, I wouldn’t think anyone would even expect that of me. It just sucks because that isn't who I am. And it makes me ill that someone I had complete faith in has now brought out the absolute worst in me. And I can't pretend it isn't happening. At this point I don't know my head from my toes, and I have to get to writing my two papers due for class this week.
That's a Wrap
2 years ago
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