Expectations

I try not to have any. Low expectations mean it will be extremely hard to be let down. I can't help but feel a little more than hopeful...there has been a lot I have been through, and I am stronger and more independent than I ever have felt before. So why can't I hope for the better? It isn't like I've never been let down...I can't seem to find myself at a happy middle ground--I either completely lose touch with all potential possibilities or I completely shut down any hope for any possible good thing to come my way. The timing is all wacky with this though...and it would be so challenging...BAH...I need to eat and work on my thesis and my drawing assignment.

Not in my backyard?

My parents would be heartbroken if they weren't there. I always dreamed of being on the beach, barefoot, with my mom and dad, sister, and gramma, with the man I was destined to be with saying our vows with the backdrop of crashing waves...So, even though I compromised and was going to have a ceremony in my parents' backyard(7/10/2004, once upon a time), I guess it was never meant to be. Which I should have known anyway, since he wasn't willing to give me what I wanted (and needed) anyway.

It is funny how we don't talk on the weekends. Weird and very suspicious.

6. Knows the meaning of romance and practices the art of it without being asked.
9. Truthful-honest-ALWAYS. No lies.
12. Loving
21. Responsible
28. Knows how to pamper me
32. Open-minded
33. Respectful of all people
35. Willing to try new things
44. Active & willing to compete
48. Trust
56. Can have stimulating intellectual conversation
60. Goes the extra distance to show me how important I am in his life