sometimes the best thing to do is just leave said person breathe for a moment. An email/IM works well, but trying to "fix" things isn't a good choice. Said person probably doesn't want things fixed, and if he or she does, he or she wants to do the fixing him or herself.
What have I gotten myself into? I should know better by now, come on...I am thirty...set in my ways...I have too many things I still need to accomplish and finish--even within this semester...There is no way I can balance it all...can I? Do I want to? Is it even worth it? What is enough for me to be willing to compromise in the way that it takes to let someone in? Do I even want to?
I know that a lot of the whole "cluttered home=cluttered insides" is true, maybe if I just do a giant cleaning of my apartment (HAHAHAHA! WHEN?!?!?!), then other aspects of my life would in turn become less complicated...HAHAHAHA...I know that anything worth having is worth the effort, but I see an ideal of what I want in my life, and I just don't see myself ever finding that. Which I'm ok with...what I am not ok with is the giving of myself when I have so much I need to do--which must be my priority. Hard to explain that even to myself, let alone anyone else. I am not even trying to make this complicated. Maybe I am by thinking and pretending it isn't.
Maybe I am making absolutely and utterly and completely no sense whatsoever.
I think that might be more accurate.
Maybe tomorrow will bring a less-bitchy, less-crabby attitude.
HA
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