I know that I shouldn't

get pissed at facebook--it is MY fault that I look for stuff...but it still sucks seeing all the happy married with spawn people from my past/present. I know that the appearance isn't the reality, but it still is frustrating and hurtful. I know that I deserve at least some of my wishes, but waiting for them to come true sucks ass in the face of facebook. :(

Expectations

I try not to have any. Low expectations mean it will be extremely hard to be let down. I can't help but feel a little more than hopeful...there has been a lot I have been through, and I am stronger and more independent than I ever have felt before. So why can't I hope for the better? It isn't like I've never been let down...I can't seem to find myself at a happy middle ground--I either completely lose touch with all potential possibilities or I completely shut down any hope for any possible good thing to come my way. The timing is all wacky with this though...and it would be so challenging...BAH...I need to eat and work on my thesis and my drawing assignment.

Football Sundays

Love 'em.
It is sunny outside (finally) and the Bo Sox won last night!
I don't like having to go eat breakfast at the caf all alone though all the time. I do have this fear that I will become the single old lady with the many cats. It doesn't help that I live kitty-corner from a family and they are getting ready for Halloween--carving pumpkins, doing the family thing with the dog and the little one...It would just be nice to be able to go eat meals with someone once in a while.
And not have people be shitty to me and ignore me. It would help if it made sense--but YOU DON'T MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALL.
Let's see how much homework I can get done today! ROTFLMAO :)
GO PACK GO!